Let me first just say that I had such high hopes for these monthly sticker photos and it all blew up in my face when she realized that the stickers were fun to play with and couldn’t sit still! Ahhh the fascination of a baby. I cannot believe Annabelle is now 1 year old. It feels like such a milestone, yet I still see her as a tiny baby. My parents babysat her for the first time today (only for 2 hours;) and I was counting down the seconds until I could race home to be with her. We are so very attached to one another. We’ve never spent more than four hours apart and that was one time for a wedding. I knew I’d love my baby, but I didn’t know the yearning I’d feel for her once she was born. If she’s not around I feel incomplete. Like there’s a hole missing inside my chest. Everything in my life has become suddenly clear now. It’s almost as if I’d had a sudden epiphany about what life is truly all about. I look back at my old self and laugh. I don’t recognize myself without Annabelle. I can barely remember life without her. It’s such a strange feeling.
Doug looked at me today and said “It doesn’t even feel like you birthed her. It doesn’t feel like we’ve raised her all these months. I don’t know how we could get such a perfect human in our life that’s completely ours. It just feels like she appeared out of thin air.” I told him thats why people say babies are miracles. That’s exactly what they are. Happy 1st birthday my sweet baby. You have my whole heart.