This past month has been a whirlwind of emotions, sleepless nights, and pure bliss. There are so many things that I want to document with Annabelle’s progression so I guess I’ll start from the beginning. Once we brought Annabelle home we were in Heaven. I seriously stared at her all night, not worrying about my sleep or if I was getting enough food. All I could think about was how perfect she is and how blessed we are! I couldn’t have dreamed up this level of happiness. The moment she looked into my eyes after she was born was the best moment of my life. I’ve never been more obsessed with another human being and the true meaning of motherhood finally resonates with me now. It’s an indescribable feeling that I could never have fathomed before she was born. Within the past month I’ve completely changed as a person. Now that my postpartum hormones have calmed down and I feel more myself (more on that later), my outlook on life has totally shifted. I definitely feel more of a sense of belonging in this world and a purpose beyond myself.
Okay, enough of the sappy stuff;) Onto how she is doing! Annabelle really is such a perfect little baby! I know all Moms say this and she’s only one month old so I can’t really say much, but she is rarely fussy unless she needs something (i.e. diaper changed, feeding, burping, etc.) and I swear she already smiles for Doug and I (or maybe that’s just gas;)! She reminds me so much of Doug and I love that. Breastfeeding is way more work than I thought! It’s mentally and physically draining. It’s more challenging than pregnancy or even labor! Being up all hours of the day/night being at your little one’s beck and call and the soreness you face at first, but I know it’s all worth it and I’ve made it my mission to give her the very best if I can. We’re trying to soak in these newborn moments because everyone is telling us they go by in the blink of an eye!
More on my recovery…
- C-Section healing: My healing so far has been amazing. I just got my sutures out last week and the scar is way smaller than I thought! I still feel a little pain/ discomfort, but I think by this time next week I’ll feel back to normal!
- Postpartum Hormones: They were CRAZY on day 3 and 5 postpartum. I seriously thought someone should have me committed! Okay, not really, but my Mom had to slap some sense into me because all I did was cry. I cried from just looking at her and I could barely stand to see her get her diaper changed because seeing her even whimper would send me over the edge. Thankfully that has all passed and I no longer cry at the drop of a hat anymore…hallelujah!
- Weight loss: Down 12lb. and I have another 15 to go! Although I rarely think about how I look as my constant concern is how Annabelle is doing.
- Appetite: I never thought this would be a postpartum symptom, but my appetite disappeared after giving birth! I swear I want to eat less than before I even got pregnant. I don’t crave any foods, only water. I know you’re suppose to eat 300 extra calories a day to keep up your milk supply so I make sure to still eat as much as I can!