Wow you guys…here we are again!
Honestly, this was all a huge shock and after it sunk in for at least a day (or two;), I became beyond excited to add another member to our family and especially another sibling for the girls! Doug has always wanted a “tribe”, although he would have NEVER admitted that when I met him in college lol. I also love the idea of having a big family. My sister and I were 10 years apart and many times it felt like I was an only child until I had my first child at 24 and my sister had her third at 34! It took 24 years for me to truly feel the sense of having something really in common with my sibling, which has been amazing!!
Now that I’m farther along, my stomach is getting bigger much faster and luckily I’m over the constant nausea, which makes things more enjoyable…sort of:) I’ve never LOVED being pregnant like many other women do, but having babies and caring for them has always been my greatest joy. I’m definitely a “full on” mom. I don’t know another way to say it, but I breastfeed my children until they are two, we co-sleep, I rarely leave them to do things alone, etc etc. It’s not something I imagined of myself, but it’s completely innate and something I can’t change or want to change! For that reason I don’t believe adding another will really alter things in our life too much since we are all attached at the hip most times (not to mention COVID).
As far as getting pregnant during COVID, I’m not worried. I know I should be, but I can’t waste my time dwelling on something I can’t change or improve. I’m sure only Doug will be allowed for the birth (which is fine and I’m thankful for that) and so far I’ve gone to every appointment alone. I know if it had been my first child it would have been a real bummer, but since this is our third, I know what to expect and am not so nervous about everything.
Annabelle is excited more and more everyday. She asks to hug the baby and she demands to see inside my stomach. I’m always telling her that it’s black in there and she can’t see anything. Yesterday she found a picture in a What To Expect When Expecting Book of a baby in its sack and she said, “I KNEW IT! I told you I could see inside!!” I explained that you only see the skeleton and then had to go down that rabbit hole of a discussion haha…
Scarlett is definitely the one I worry about as I still breastfeed her and we co-sleep together. I find comfort in knowing she will be a bit older (just turning 2 years old) and will have her sister to play with. In the end, I know having babies close in age will bond them more than anything else.
Thank you all for joining us on this crazy rollercoaster and I’m excited to share more!